Ok, so this has been a post that I’ve been wanting to do for a while now but I just didn’t really know how. First of all, how does one take bloody blog photos for such a personal thing? I didn’t know how, so I’ve decided to eschew my usual blog photography and instead use real, proper pictures of me. After all, this is a personal post.
Today I’m talking about body confidence. This isn’t some “5 ways to be body confident!” or “How to love yourself!” type post, because to be quite honest I am still learning about how to have a positive body image. I just wanted to get this post out, in a sort of cathartic way I guess, and hope that maybe it’ll open up a bit of a conversation with you guys about this topic.
Some of you may know that I had a bad ski accident last year and as a result tore 2 of my knee ligaments. I needed to have surgery for it in August and thankfully now my knee is doing pretty well. However, I have put on quite a lot of weight as a result and I’ll be honest and say it has been quite difficult for me.
I feel quite conceited saying that, as there are far worse things going on in the world, but nonetheless I’m going to talk about it today. I am going to be honest today and tell you all that since my accident I have put on almost 2 stone and went from a size 8-10 to a size 12. When this happened, everyone around me told me that I’d lose it easily after my surgery, once I was walking again it would come right off. But that didn’t happen.
Now I get that this wasn’t something I could control and everyone puts on a bit of weight from time to time, but this really affected me. I was getting ready in the mornings, only to find out none of my jeans fit me anymore. None of my ‘going out’ dresses fit me anymore. I went to the Scottish Baftas with my brother, planning on wearing a dress from a University ball the year before – the zip didn’t even go near me.
All of this kind of came to a head when I bought a dress for my University Christmas Ball this year – a red velvet number from Coast, which I loved. The only thing was, I had to lose a few pounds to fit into it. So between November and the end of December I was meticulous about eating and limiting myself to between 1100-1300 calories a day.