With the start of the New Year, social media is filled with messages of motivation and positivity for the year ahead. Everyone seems to be making positive life changes or kicking their work up a notch. It’s so amazing to see everyone being so motivated and determined to achieve their goals – but it’s also been frustrating for me, because I’ve really not had the best start to 2018.
I wanted to write this post, not to complain about my situation, but to act as a bit of an explanation for the past few weeks. I’ve only posted once here on my blog (my 2018 goals post, ironically), I missed the final week of Vlogmas on my YouTube channel and my social media posts have been quite sporadic. I’ve also just not felt completely like myself and I find that writing about it tends to help me.
So I went home to Scotland for Christmas – I was really looking forward to it, considering I hadn’t spent an extended period of time there for months. But very sadly, 2 days before Christmas my grandmother passed away. I haven’t mentioned this anywhere online, because if I’m being honest I didn’t really know how. I’ve never really experienced grief before, and I’m also just write a private person in general, so I decided not to mention it at all.
My Christmas at home was still very lovely – there was all the usual nice drinks, food and laughter with my family. But, of course, it wasn’t quite the same.